Blindness

I have this friend that is my best friend.  One day I realized that I had quite a lot of feelings for my best friend.  It took me quite a while before I could finally accept these feelings and tell my friend how I felt. 

You may ask why it took so long.  Well, my best friend is a girl and so am I.  I never thought of myself as gay, or bi-sexual, or anything other than straight.  I never thought about it at all.  Obviously not, nothing had ever come up like this before.  My best friend, to my relief, had the same feelings for me.  We started dating.  While telling our friends, some of the responses I got were along the lines of; "why did you switch teams?", "when did you decide you were a lesbian?", things like that.  These questions upset me coming from my friends, and then I stopped to think that perhaps they aren't educated on the matter.  At the same time though, what is it that they need to be educated on, none of these questions would have come up if it was another boy I was dating.

Why is it so hard for people to understand that I did not choose this.  I did not choose the person that my heart felt for.  I did not choose to get the feelings I did, and I did not choose that she felt the same.  Did anybody ever choose who they felt for, or did it just happen.  It just happened most likely, not many people wake up one day and say to themselves, "I'm going to like this person!", it just isn't reality.

Reality is that chemicals mix in your body, sending signals to your brain, telling it that you now have feelings for somebody.  Whether these feelings stay or go depends on circumstances and emotions.  But, people in same sex relationships never CHOOSE to be in them. They simply do what makes them happy, so to speak.  If I had feelings for a boy, I wouldn't ever deny them, I would go for it.  I did the same with my best friend.  I am proud to say that she is my girlfriend now, and I am excited to see what lies ahead for us.

This relationship won't be easy, none of them ever are.  This will be different, as is every relationship.  I wish one day that the rest of society views  this as I do, another relationship.  Two people who felt something for each other and took a leap.  I hope that one day society will view same sex relationships just as they do heterosexual relationships.  There is no difference, just two people who feel something and want to be with each other.  Love is blind, why can't society be too.

I love my girlfriend, and I am proud to be out.  She is my everything and I wouldn't trade this for anything else in the world.  I am happy, and damn it, that is all that matters.